Just an Ordinary Day
Today is a special day to remember.
I have been racking my brain for something special to say to mark this day.
I finally realized that I don’t have anything special to say because today is like every other day for me and for far too many other parents.
Every day is a day I honor and remember Joel.
Every day is a day that I am here and he is not.
Every day I want him back.
Every day I want time to reverse.
Every day I cry.
Every day I tell him I love him, and I did the best I could.
Every day I say I’m sorry.
Every day my heart grows as it continues to break and to love more than I thought possible.
I love that there is a day to remember. I think our babies deserve this, and I know that as life goes on I won’t be able to focus every day on Joel the way I do now. I know that I will look forward to this day because it will hold a guarantee that his name will be spoken. So even though this day doesn’t feel very special to me right now, I know that it is.
Natalie had a good idea, and I copy her shamelessly. If you like, I would welcome you to leave a comment about your baby in heaven. It would truly be my pleasure to pray over every single one of you. And I will speak every one of their names out loud, starting with my son.
My name is Sara Joy. My son’s name is Joel James. He went to heaven on June 13, 2009, just 4 short days after his birth. I can’t wait to see him again.
my name is julie and my baby jon evel was born still on september 18th, 2009.
thank you for everything. i'm still so glad all our friends smashed us together in such a hurry as they did. your words soothed me. i hope somehow i am helping you as well.
and here's to our furture…
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Thank you, Sara.
C.
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Hugs to you Sara!
My name is Dawn and my twin sons Cole Robert and Dillen Andrew were born February 23, 2009. They lived for just over an hour. What I wouldn't give to reverse time...even if it were to just relive that short period of time with them over and over.
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Sending you hugs.
I have names for them, locked away. The first time I will say them aloud will be when I see them again, I think.
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My name is Natalie Cline and I lost my first child to miscarriage on July 27, 2009.
Thank you for being you. For reaching out to others and helping us, and for allowing us to help you. This community is full of love, and while I hate that we're in it, at least we're all in it together.
xoxo.
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Oh Sara Joy, I am so sorry for the loss of your sweet, precious baby Joel.
My name is Jody and my daughter's name is Adeline Lori. She was born on June 19, 2007 and died on June 20, 2007. I too, cannot wait to see her again some day. Not a day goes by when I don't think about her and miss her. What I would give to hold her again.
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My name is Wendy and my son Matthew returned to heaven on July 28, 2006, which was also the day of his birth.
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